Most people can't get to the place where they end up knowing the real meaning of freedom or whether they are actually free or not. As my personal realisations go, I ended up realising that the freedom and possibility of freedom have been permanently foreclosed. People had as much fun they could have in the 90s and those who failed to have fun even in the 90s can only depend on delusions to have fun. I am grateful that the reality presented itself to me the way it presented itself to me because any other way I would have been tripping on spirituality and theology and would have failed to see the real nature of the world and this country. The real nature of this country and what it rules it is of a rapist who sees your sexual curiousity and desire to be intimate with a person of your choice as a reason to rape you, because these very thing in its eyes demand to be disciplined, demand rape, demand shaming when it is just the sexual urges, animalistic drives, the desire for domination and humiliation of the person in front transforming into act of enforcing discipline. Things have essence, so do emotions, so do actions and so does phenomena. When the base of the emotion is domination and humiliation of others the resulting emotion, action or phenomenon will carry its essence and this very thing is the reason for deterioration of this nation. I have seen despotic tyranny personally, and the bad news is that it can be personalised, customised for a person for what rules this nation like Dr. Evil in Austin Powers creates its mini-mes. Imagine a rickshawala pulled from the streets and transformed into the American interpretation of Hitler. Efficiency in exploitation doesn't require skill if you have the tools to deliver fear. Whole countries can function on variations of desire, lust and fear and I ended up seeing that they actually do. All discussions end when the core of something itself is rape. All of this seems far-fetched for people who are in bubbles of their delusions but the bad news is that once the bubble pops and reality seeps in the place where the bubble was, the absolute bottom line of this nation would become visible and for a person like me, bottom lines matter the most.